Back to the Beginning

Finally cleared my claims today. It's not much, but it still felt good striking it off my to-do list. Suddenly I reflected on an ex-manager of mine who used to get our support staff to do her claims. Seeing that we handled international operations, she travelled quite extensively, sometimes stretching more than a week so there were a lot of receipts, ticket stubs and itineraries to gather and file together. Our support staff did it quietly and and diligently for sure, but by right it should be done by the traveller themselves..heck I have even seen senior managers who manage their claims on their own. That said, I thought I'd give myself a pat on the back that I did my own claims. It's a little thing, but in that little action perhaps I have displayed a more acceptable behaviour as a manager. When one is always so full of self-doubt over one's ability, every little right thing done counts.

Had some news today that may see me leaving the current portfolio to something new and more up my alley (I hope).  Hopefully it will be a good thing for me, was feeling so down and depressed past few weeks, maybe even months. Perhaps the tide will turn soon. I can't tell yet if I will float or drown, but I guess we can only find out by venturing bravely. If it is a choice between the fear of the unknown or the fear of "what if", I think the latter is still sadder and more regrettable in the long run. Regardless of how you view life, whether you feel it's long or short, it is best lived with minimal regrets. Onward, forward, ever faithful, ever hopeful.

I don't deny that I get a little bit envious of the rich and famous who seems to have it all, with their luxurious fashion, jet-setting lifestyle and always looking fabulous and instagram-ready wherever they are, whatever they are doing. I don't begrudge those who worked hard for their fame and fortune, but those who were born into or married into wealthy families? You can't deny they are a bit on the lucky side no? (Though perhaps those who married into the wealthy families probably had to work at it too, but I digress =p) Anyways, envy aside, I remind myself that probably they have their own set of challenges in life. Money can buy lots of things that can make one happy, but not necessarily fix every single problem in your life. And no doubt being in the limelight and public eye comes with its own unique set of pressure and stresses. So here's my take on things I think the rich and famous deal with which we probably are unaware of: List of Rich People's P...

Still drawn to wistful, hopeful songs. A blend of melancholy and faith. Perhaps the incurable romantic will always be inside me . Oft forgotten, but somewhere deep inside.

Just write. Back to when words flowed easily and often. Ultimately it's not about whether it is being read or praised by anyone, but just so it is written in your voice, which is yours alone.